Original Post: 11:53 AM
And when he got into the boat, his disciples followed him. And behold, there arose a great storm on the sea, so that the boat was being swamped by the waves; but he was asleep. And they went and woke him, saying, “Save us, Lord; we are perishing.”
It seems that I keep grasping at the accounts of storms in the Bible during the life of Christ where the disciples showed very little faith. More than that… they panicked. But I know I would have been right along with them shaking him awake in the back of that boat and crying out for him to save me. So what is the purpose of these storms in life? Jesus calms the waves and rescues the disciples repeatedly in his time with them. Is it merely meant to make us recognize who is the ultimate authority in our lives? I recognize it, acknowledge it, claim it as a promise and still the waves seem to be brewing in the distance always threatening to wipe out whatever hope has emerged from the dark clouds. I have given up my control repeatedly, daily, and pray before each endeavor. So what is it? Why is the storm still brewing? What lesson have I not learned yet? I do trust that God will make a way for me to get employment and get out on my own. But what is stopping the process? Is it something I am doing or not doing? Is it my pride? I didn’t think I even had anything left to be proud about!
Today I am praying for clarity so that I can see what needs to get done and not spend time on useless things. Praying for wisdom and courage, confidence and perseverance as I finish school and look for work. Also praying for thick skin to take whatever critiques I may obtain so that I can learn and grow from them. Finally, I am praying for sensitivity in my own spirit as I deal with other people and their imperfections; and patience for others as they deal with my imperfections.
Updated: 7:00 PM
Ok, I have to give thanks now! I called my student advisor yesterday to find out just how many more terms they will string me along and I found out that I only have 14 credits left on my degree program but I have another required class left after that which they will not allow me to graduate without. They said they would get back to me about switching me out of one of my non-required classes into this class this term so I can Graduate in March! Got the call to confirm that they did it even though the required class was full and everything looked like it was not likely to work out! God is so good. I needed to be done! I have been working very hard and the stress of not having finished yet was wearing me thin while I am out of work and can’t seem to get anything in my field without the Bachelor’s degree. So, recapping, yes… I will be graduation with a Visual Communications BS degree this March 2008 … as long as I pass both of these classes. 😉 Keep me in your prayers please.